22 8 / 2010

I hate feeling locked inside. My life is a mess (again) and I’m trying to fix it, which is ain’t easy…  I don’t know what to do. I’m taking exams and I realized that I was a disaster. People help me, encourage me and even if I try to be a better person, a more serious one, it’s still not enough. But I have to keep trying, I’ll have to pass this first year of University, soon or later. It should be a happy thing, I like what I study, I love the people I met and the place is great… It’s just that having exams for the five next years could be compare to hell to me. But there are exams everywhere if you don’t want to finish in a candy shop, so I don’t have any other option.. And other studies don’t interest me.. They all tell me that I have the capacity to achieve that. I have to believe them. I wish I was a more tenacious girl, with more self confidence.. Maybe I don’t deserve having them in my life, they’re like sunflowers and I’m the rain. Picture ©derision, Edimburgh.

I hate feeling locked inside. My life is a mess (again) and I’m trying to fix it, which is ain’t easy… 

I don’t know what to do. I’m taking exams and I realized that I was a disaster. People help me, encourage me and even if I try to be a better person, a more serious one, it’s still not enough.

But I have to keep trying, I’ll have to pass this first year of University, soon or later. It should be a happy thing, I like what I study, I love the people I met and the place is great… It’s just that having exams for the five next years could be compare to hell to me.
But there are exams everywhere if you don’t want to finish in a candy shop, so I don’t have any other option.. And other studies don’t interest me..

They all tell me that I have the capacity to achieve that. I have to believe them. I wish I was a more tenacious girl, with more self confidence..

Maybe I don’t deserve having them in my life, they’re like sunflowers and I’m the rain.

Picture ©derision, Edimburgh.

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